2003-01-25
5:48 p.m.

"Maybe some faith would do me good."
~Fiona Apple, On The Bound

Well, I guess a lot of things have happened since my last update, yes? I've really just been feeling like complete and utter crap. Like hopeless. There's plenty more I could say about that, but I'm sure we're all sick and tired of my melodramatic musings, yes? But here's the run-down:

Last Saturday was Beth's wedding. It was so beautiful, simply because Beth and Eric are so completely in love. It's amazing. I am composing a letter to thank them for everything. Though given my current state of mind, I wish I coulkd have felt better for the specail day. I just felt awful, since I was the only one without a dress. (Beth's mom wanted to make it "easier" for me. Oh well... Such is my life.

After much agonizing, I changed my major from Education to Creative Writing. Don't even get me started.

Sathya and I had a big fight yesterday. He was an even bigger ass than usual, and really disrespected me. He crossed the line, but I don't really feel like going over that again. Same old shit.

Meri and I went out last night. Got totally wasted. I wanted cloves, but I sent her in, and she got me Fantasia's, so that really pissed me off. She wasn't really mean though, so that's an improvement.

Oh yeah. We have cable now. One good thing. Woo.

Yeah, so it's not like I really want to die, more than I want a new life, a new body.... But I guess I'm stuck. Bleh.