2002-04-08
1:10 p.m.

Okay, so where was I? I saw TZ and all was joyous....

But Friday was kind of a bad day. To make a long story short, I wanted Meri to give me a ride home after my massage, but I got out about an hour later than I thought I was going to, and I pissed her off so she wouldn't give me a ride after all. Everything's okay now, I guess. She called me later, and we went out with Sathya, but it still kind of ruined my day. For me, making people mad is the worst thing that can happen. I was still feeling kind of wierd when we went out. I can't really describe it. I'm always afraid I'm going to do something horrible, and everyone I love is going to desert me. I know that rationally that's not going to happen, but I have lost a lot of good friends because of stupid things I have done, or stupid things they have done. It's like a time bomb ticking in my chest.

Let's see, so Saturday was good. I spent the day with Jan working on a Philosophy project. I can't help but feel comfortable around Jan. It felt good to actually do something productive with her.

Yesterday, I went to Fox's house. He had me, Gloria, and Aaron over for an Anime fest. We sat around all day watching Fushigi Yugi and stuffing our faces. But it was fun and pretty laid back.

I can't really think of anything else to write. Till later, I suppose.