2004-05-15
3:07 p.m.

"So now you're sleeping peaceful. I lie awake and pray that you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll see another day." ~Sarah McLachlan, Hold On

So, I haven't written in here in ages. The past semester has been hell. Academically, mostly. Emotionally too. But I survived without dying. My grades will be fine I think, and I'm getting over Tim, so that's good. It's been a year and it is becoming part of my past.

Fox has been splendid. We walked to class together every Monday and Wednesday and it's been nice to see him so much. I made another new friend this semester too: Joel. Gay of course. A walking porno movie but very sweet to me. A writer.

I got published in U of A's undergrad. literary magazine. 3 Poems. Go me. I took a writing class that has really helped me to grow as a writer and a person. I have discovered the joy of the personal essay.

Another wedding to attend later this month. My cousin Cassie. Will not be a bridesmaid this time around. Family drama ahead.

I have bottom braces again, for another 5 months. Almost had a nervous breakdown over that one. Over it now.

Beth's moving back to Tucson. Eric will follow her soon after he secures a job with Raytheon. Beth will be working at and attending the U of A. Very exciting.

Had a big fight with my mom last night over Stephanie and her new friends. Again, complicated and upseting.

And I saw Howie yesterday and he has cancer. Hotchins lymphoma disease. So complicated and sad and confusing.

And I have Gloucoma. Managable, not as severe as cancer. Manageable. I will not go blind if I can help it.

That is all for now.